James 1:2-4 (AMP)
2 Consider it nothing but joy, my [a]brothers and sisters, whenever you fall into various trials. 3 Be assured that the testing of your faith [through experience] produces endurance [leading to spiritual maturity, and inner peace]. 4 And let endurance have its perfect result and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfect and completely developed [in your faith], lacking in nothing.
It seems without any doubt that the more I’m driven to complete a task which God has called me to, the more Satan finds a cozy seat on my right shoulder to just sit and whisper in my ear. For the last week, I’ve confided in my husband about hearing the faint whispers of Satan in my right ear. Though I’m thankful that they were faint, and I had the discernment to recognize that they were not words from God, they still seemed to eat away at me as if almost disguised in a mild, sneaky persistence. My husband and I have prayed nightly for protection, and healing from the oppression of Satan lurking in the darkness~ yet he was still there. There were times that I let my own worry take me away from spending more time with Christ, though I know that is exactly what I needed. The hurdles we had to jump and clear this week, were so numerous, that by tonight, I felt as though my legs would crumble from underneath me if I had to make even one more jump. My husband saw it in my eyes, and wanted to pray with me, even then I could hear Satan in my ear. His lies were like battery acid on my heart. He would say things like, “you are not good enough… don’t you remember that one time when you…________________________” (fill in the blank with a sin of mine he was trying to haunt me with). “You are not strong enough for this, WEAKLING!” He was speaking to me like I owed some sort of retribution for the sin I’ve already been forgiven for. My husband closed in prayer “Amen”, then I looked at him and said, “it is horrible”. Without any other explanation, he stared at me, dead in the eyes and started praying again. He placed his hand on my face (not even realizing he was covering my right ear), and all I heard out of that ear was the ocean; as in a conch shell that blotted out the sound of Satan’s voice. Then I heard Christ speak, “I am here, I am here, I AM HERE, let him be afraid, let you not be afraid, because I AM HERE”. Christ showed me what I thought were spikes that sat on my right shoulder, then my vision zoomed in and they were made from HIS nails, from His cross, that shed His blood, to forgive, heal, and protect me.
There are so many awesome things going on in our lives right now. We are truly feeling the reality of blessings being poured upon us through our obedience to Christ and His calling in our lives. You may think I’m a bit crazy after reading this blog, and that’s okay, I will admit to “a bit”. Any more than that is a mere infraction, and any insults or distress caused to me for the sake of Christ, I will be well pleased with. For when I am weak, then I am strong. Tonight, my hands have been washed clean, and I will continue to grow stronger and stronger. Tomorrow is a new day, and although I am hopeful and have faith in my protection from Christ, I am aware that Satan will stop at almost nothing to destroy God’s plan in my life. Tomorrow, there may just be another hurdle for me to jump and clear, and I will do so with joy. I will jump that hurdle knowing that I am being prepared to let endurance have its perfect result in my completely developed faith. God has something big, huge, SUPER GINORMOUS planned for us, and when all the cards are played we will be spiritually lacking nothing! For that, I will consider it nothing but joy whenever I fall into another trial.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (AMP)
9 but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness. ”Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me. 10 So I am well pleased with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, and with difficulties, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak [in human strength], then I am strong [truly able, truly powerful, truly drawing from God’s strength].
Job 17:9 (AMP)
“Nevertheless the righteous will hold to his ways,
And he who has clean hands will grow stronger and stronger.