2 Timothy 1:7 (NIV)
7 For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.
Here I sit at 2:17 AM, writing this blog, because the one I had planned on sharing last night, has been put on the back burner (by God) until further notice. After praying with my husband, God spoke to me to write something different. Although I have said, “learning to be obedient was a struggle, obeying Christ is now a privilege”, the fear of human judgment still haunts me on occasion and causes me to resist obedience at times. I know better, I should never fear the judgment of people when following direct orders from Christ. Yet alas, it is one of my shortcomings for sure. So, I laid there in bed a bit, with tears streaming down my face, and my body starting to tremble, and I cried out to God to fan my flame. I felt weakened by the words of the great deceiver. It took everything in me to get out of my comfortable bed and begin to write a new blog for this week. I strapped on my armor and gained strength and protection from God and pushed those lies (that Satan wanted me to believe) behind me where they belong. The lies that the judgment from those I associate with; friends, family, and even (more often than not) those that share my faith, are not what is important. That same judgment had almost crippled me in the past, so the lies that any new judgment will cripple me again, are very easy for me to believe. I can’t avoid, nor coerce, or attempt to correct those that feel the need to pass judgment on me, I simply need to understand that I will always be judged; but only One judge should really matter to me. I cannot and will not hide my Lord and His light under a bush anymore. Not for anyone, and certainly not for myself. The fact remains that my blogs or my books, have to be read, before any sound judgement can even be made. What is important is my obedience to Christ, what is not important are my fears. I know I have been called to be a disciple for Christ, and when I take my personal feelings out of the equations that involve my fears, I call on the Holy Spirit, and I am obedient, fearless with Him, my heart is at peace, and I am blessing others through Christ. Moving forward, I will continue to cling to this…
Philippians 4:13 Amplified Bible (AMP)
13 I can do all things [which He has called me to do] through Him who strengthens and empowers me [to fulfill His purpose—I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency; I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him who infuses me with inner strength and confident peace.]